Dream date

I woke up to the sound of chirping birds and lovely smell of freshly rained soil. With the windows open I could see the droplets of Dews over the blades of grasses in my garden. It is such a beautiful day to wander around the town I am currently in. After a healthy breakfast of scrambled eggs and wheat bread, I wore my favourite track suits for the adventure. The morning cool breeze hit my face once I stepped into the town which had a huge lake as it's heart. People were starting to come one by one out of their houses for work. Even though I am afraid of boating, today I want to try and get rid of my fears. To over come my fears I walked towards the lake for a thrilling boat ride. After sitting on the jiggly wiggly dancing boat, my heart was racing fast that it was about to burst out of my chest. Yes, it's really difficult to take that first step. By the time my heart was starting to calm down, the boat has been driven halfway through the lake. Now I saw the beautiful ducks and swans swimming around my boat. I streched my hands to feel the chillness of the water,  but the swan thought I was going to hurt him and swam away from my boat. It is funny though.  Why would I hurt it I thought.  My mind went back to the cold water and again my heart was about to race that s when I thought what this silent water will do to me? The people will only hurt other not the nature. Nature is made by God. God will never hurt me. So I stretched my hand again and this time without any fear. Suddenly a thunder sounded and a huge wave of water crashed against my boat and I fell into the water. I went deep inside and thanks to the life jacket I came back up but the lake ended in a waterfalls and I was moving faster near the brim of my life and I was gasping for air and another thunder crashed and everything went blank and I woke up gasping for air. I was in my bed not wet. It was all a dream and since I have overcome my fear God was trying to wake me up I guess. Suddenly I realized that I was in a crowded and polluted city. I hope my dream comes true without the last part though.! 

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My first love part 36 (suspense)

"Where are you?"
She read and reread the message that she got from an unknown number. As usual Anjana immediately searched the number in 'truecaller' and also saved the number and searched her 'whatsapp' to get to know the identity of that number, but everything went in vain.
'You idiot it's his message only. You don't pretend as if it is from a stranger' , her inner voice told her. She got the strange, gut knotted feeling that the message was from 'him'.
"ANJANAAA..!!" This time it was her brother who snapped her out of her thoughts.
With lots of irritation she cut her brother's conversation before he could utter another word. "Yeah. I know.  I am coming. It's a tedious process of getting ready for one's own engagement. So just shut and leave from here, unless you want me to come out in front of everyone underdressed!!"
"Fine, fine, alright. Just make it quick" came a quick reply from the other side of her room's door. This time it was her mother. Anjana just rolled her eyes before turning her attention back to getting ready for her first meeting of her 'life partner' away from the idiotic message she got which made her create some stupid assumptions.
Two days ago when her mother wanted to have the 'serious' talk it was all about her marraige. It seems that her parents have finally found a perfect groom for her and informed her about their decision.
Her family told her it must be a suspense for Anjana to find out about her "would-be" and did not give any information about that mysterious guy, who was now waiting downstairs for a cup of coffee.

My first love part 35 (troubled and haunted)

'Happily ever after will never come in my life.' After that last breakup call, Suriya prakash did not bother to call or even text her. He did not try to contact her and it's been 6 months.
Anjana was now working hardly for her physique and also thought it will be a means of distraction from her 'Suriya haunted' mind. But whatever she did, he never left her mind. It was as if he was etched to her soul, not willing to leave her except he left her for good.
The pain he caused her was so strong that made her heart turn cold at his thought. 'How could he do this?'
Anjana now and then used to just chec(stal)k him in Facebook.  
But there was no sign of guilt or sorrow in his posts. She got more furious on seeing his photos posted by him and his friends, who were enjoying their 'work' at Singapore. Those pictures were like a punch to her bleeding heart which made it to bleed more from the previous unhealed wounds. So she decided not to do things that made her cry all over night causing puffy eyes at morning,which still went unnoticed by her parents, and blocked him in Facebook, WhatsApp and even in phone book as if he was using his India number abroad.
"ANJANAAA!!!" came her mom's voice floating in air awakening her from her own troubled land.
"Yes mom?" She replied trying not to show her damned emotions out to her mother.
"I guess it's time for some serious talk" her mother said to her sternly.
'Has he called my mom again as a revenge or something?'

My first love part 34 (mistake)

Reality hit her when she reached home. She felt as if she came back to home after a very long trip. Thinking that hereafter she does not have to wake up every Mondays early and to go to hostel half heartedly, no more hostel food, no more worries. But, hiding the biggest thing of her life from her parents was kind of difficult now. 'How long should I hide him from my parents' thought Anjana.
But her life became upside down at home. She missed her hostel life. Her mom wanted to groom Anjana for her marriage. Once her mom told about it to her, she started telling her mom that she wanted to do higher studies and then only think about marraige. That's when her mother breaked the news. "You know when you went to Abarna's treat, I called you. But I said you that I called by mistake. It was not true, actually I got a call from a stranger telling that you were out roaming with boys and you are characterless. But I did not believe him. And I did not say on that day to you because I know that you will be in lots of stress. Because of all these only I am trying to get you married off now." Her mother said with tears rolling over her cheek. When her mother told these, all Anjana could feel was was a mixture of anger, disappointment, frustration with lots of hurt. She said her mother nothing like that happened and asked her to prepare for Anjana's marraige. She gave her mother the permission to start looking for alliances. Then she consoled her mother and went to her room with a single thought in her.
As if on some kind of the same telepathy that happens between them every time, he called.
SP: "hey dear, I miss you!"
Anjana: "yeah fine", she told with all the hatred in her voice on hearing his cajoles.
SP: "hmm.. okay one good news" He told without hiding his excitement and not talking anything about Anjana's sarcasm.
She was listening silently. All she thought was after every thing he has done, she did not expect him to call her mother. And even after everything he had done, he talked with her as if nothing has happened. 'He has done the biggest mistake of his life', she thought.
She had said her thoughts aloud. So he heard Anjana and asked her "why? Me going to Singapore is a mistake?" After everything he has done she thought, "so you do everything and go off to some place happily, you do not have any kind of sense nor do you have some trust in me. You have called my mother and told that I am characterless,  to my mom!! For God's sake, were you in your right mind?"
He was silent and that made her more angry and she for one last time told "you will never change, even if we marry there is no guarantee that you will treat me right, so this time it's for real. I am breaking up with you, good bye!!".

My first love part 33 (the last day)

She was so much happy, but something in the back of her mind was sad. 'Oh God.! I am going to miss everything' she thought.
After the fight they had that day, she was not normal anymore in talking with him, but he was talking as if nothing has happened. This made her feel a bit guilty for scolding him, but she thought that few misunderstandings like these will only make their love more stronger.
In midst of all these happenings, her so called five and a half years of college life was coming to an end. This place held lots of memories. This place had sculpted her. This place showed her what love, hate, fight, friendship and life is. The most important stage of growing up from teenage to adult has happened here. To say in a nutshell her life happened here. It was really hard to leave this place without dropping few tears, but she held back those tears and showed the happiness that whelmed inside of her, because she thought that if happiness is shared it doubles unlike those tears.
Her dad came to pick her up from the college and she was preparing couple of weeks ago to leave as she almost lived there as If she was in home. Her friends used to say, 'just a television is missing or else it is an optimal place for a family to live in'.
Hugging her friends before leaving made her eyes teary, but she immediately wiped them off and put on her cheery smile in front. Among her friends she was the first one to leave, so all her friends were there to say her goodbye. After a final glance at her h(ro)ome, she handed over the key to the warden and left with her father, not before texting Suriya prakash that she was leaving finally for good. She thought no more fights will be there between them because she will be always with her parents and later marry him with their parents acknowledgement.

My first love part 32 (sorry again)

She was in middle of doing a procedure for a patient in the hospital and her mobile started ringing. Her unit mate attended the call and kept in her ear for her to talk. She heard nothing from the other end except for some kind of noise. But she recognised who it was and told "I am busy right now. I will call later". After that she was not able to concentrate on whatever she was doing. She just did everything robotically with her mind not in her control. She felt so much depressed, just waiting for the day to get over. Past one week she has been calling him continuously whenever she was free and at night.But he did not attend the call nor did he reply to her text messages.
Once she came to her room at the end of the day,totally worn out, she took her mobile and called him.
The mobile kept on ringing and when she was about to end it he picked up.
Both of them were silent for a minute, thinking whoever talks first will be the loser of the so called war. As usual Anjana talked the first word. But hell no, she did not say sorry.
He replied "sorry".
"How many sorries are you going to waste?" She asked without masking any of her emotions. He did not reply.
With all the emotional turbulence swirling within her, she started crying again."you were the one, who was there for me when my parents made me cry. And promised to take care of me. But then you started to show your true self. And always make me cry, then finally say sorry and behave as if nothing has happened between us. We have lost our love in the process of fighting." She said to him, with her sobs interrupting her now and then.

He then replied slowly in a composed voice "sorry darling. I am really really sorry. I will surely make it up to you for all the mistakes and hurt that I have made you go through. I am really sorry. This will be the first and last that I will behave like this. So hereafter if I do something you just leave me."
When she heard him say those words, she only had one thing in her thoughts and this time she is not going to hide her hurt from hurting him. So she replied "so then you are planning to hurt me again also. Right?get lost..!" And then she cut the call abruptly. But started crying again, thinking that he might have got hurt because of her harsh words.
So finally she sent a message 'I am sorry if I have hurt you. I will call you when I am back to normal'.

My first love part 31 (it's okay)

In the darkness of her room, all she could feel was hurt. She was more than hurt. No words in the dictionary could probably explain how she was feeling at the moment. Amidst the darkness the only sound she was able to hear was her sobs and snobs. 'It's yet another night of crying' thought Anjana. After whatever happened that day nothing seemed to be normal for her. And in between all these problems that was happening, that day her mom started to call her. She has said her mother that she was going to Abarna's birthday treat to the nearby hotel. So when her mom called she answered the mobile in a less crowded and a minimum noise area in the mall,the ladies room. A line of relief fell across her features when her mother told her that she has called her by mistake, because the minute before her mom called her she received yet another threatening message from Suriya saying that he has called her mom and told everything, but she did not mind it because he never had such guts to call her mom and talk. Before ending the call her mother asked about her whereabouts. Anjana just replied: "mom I am in marybrown restaurant. After that we will go near the porur lake to take some pictures of ourselves." Nothing in the voice of her mother indicated that Suriya has called her. So Anjana thought 'he will always only threaten me to make me obey him. Such a sadist'.
In the room Anjana was crying so loudly that she was afraid that she might wake up some nearby room mate. As this was her internship period she stayed in a  single room as part of rules of the management. So she was happy that no one knew her crying and feel pity for her, or worse, would start calling Suriya and shout at him for this pathetic situation of Anjana that he put her in. She cried and cried the whole night till her lacrimal glands stopped secreting tears and in between her stable non crying minutes she kept on calling Suriya prakash,who initially was cutting her call without attending it and later switched off his mobile.
But something inside of her told that everything will be okay tomorrow and it's okay to cry her heart out for a night without any interruptions.