My first love part 36 (suspense)

"Where are you?"
She read and reread the message that she got from an unknown number. As usual Anjana immediately searched the number in 'truecaller' and also saved the number and searched her 'whatsapp' to get to know the identity of that number, but everything went in vain.
'You idiot it's his message only. You don't pretend as if it is from a stranger' , her inner voice told her. She got the strange, gut knotted feeling that the message was from 'him'.
"ANJANAAA..!!" This time it was her brother who snapped her out of her thoughts.
With lots of irritation she cut her brother's conversation before he could utter another word. "Yeah. I know.  I am coming. It's a tedious process of getting ready for one's own engagement. So just shut and leave from here, unless you want me to come out in front of everyone underdressed!!"
"Fine, fine, alright. Just make it quick" came a quick reply from the other side of her room's door. This time it was her mother. Anjana just rolled her eyes before turning her attention back to getting ready for her first meeting of her 'life partner' away from the idiotic message she got which made her create some stupid assumptions.
Two days ago when her mother wanted to have the 'serious' talk it was all about her marraige. It seems that her parents have finally found a perfect groom for her and informed her about their decision.
Her family told her it must be a suspense for Anjana to find out about her "would-be" and did not give any information about that mysterious guy, who was now waiting downstairs for a cup of coffee.

My first love part 35 (troubled and haunted)

'Happily ever after will never come in my life.' After that last breakup call, Suriya prakash did not bother to call or even text her. He did not try to contact her and it's been 6 months.
Anjana was now working hardly for her physique and also thought it will be a means of distraction from her 'Suriya haunted' mind. But whatever she did, he never left her mind. It was as if he was etched to her soul, not willing to leave her except he left her for good.
The pain he caused her was so strong that made her heart turn cold at his thought. 'How could he do this?'
Anjana now and then used to just chec(stal)k him in Facebook.  
But there was no sign of guilt or sorrow in his posts. She got more furious on seeing his photos posted by him and his friends, who were enjoying their 'work' at Singapore. Those pictures were like a punch to her bleeding heart which made it to bleed more from the previous unhealed wounds. So she decided not to do things that made her cry all over night causing puffy eyes at morning,which still went unnoticed by her parents, and blocked him in Facebook, WhatsApp and even in phone book as if he was using his India number abroad.
"ANJANAAA!!!" came her mom's voice floating in air awakening her from her own troubled land.
"Yes mom?" She replied trying not to show her damned emotions out to her mother.
"I guess it's time for some serious talk" her mother said to her sternly.
'Has he called my mom again as a revenge or something?'

My first love part 34 (mistake)

Reality hit her when she reached home. She felt as if she came back to home after a very long trip. Thinking that hereafter she does not have to wake up every Mondays early and to go to hostel half heartedly, no more hostel food, no more worries. But, hiding the biggest thing of her life from her parents was kind of difficult now. 'How long should I hide him from my parents' thought Anjana.
But her life became upside down at home. She missed her hostel life. Her mom wanted to groom Anjana for her marriage. Once her mom told about it to her, she started telling her mom that she wanted to do higher studies and then only think about marraige. That's when her mother breaked the news. "You know when you went to Abarna's treat, I called you. But I said you that I called by mistake. It was not true, actually I got a call from a stranger telling that you were out roaming with boys and you are characterless. But I did not believe him. And I did not say on that day to you because I know that you will be in lots of stress. Because of all these only I am trying to get you married off now." Her mother said with tears rolling over her cheek. When her mother told these, all Anjana could feel was was a mixture of anger, disappointment, frustration with lots of hurt. She said her mother nothing like that happened and asked her to prepare for Anjana's marraige. She gave her mother the permission to start looking for alliances. Then she consoled her mother and went to her room with a single thought in her.
As if on some kind of the same telepathy that happens between them every time, he called.
SP: "hey dear, I miss you!"
Anjana: "yeah fine", she told with all the hatred in her voice on hearing his cajoles.
SP: "hmm.. okay one good news" He told without hiding his excitement and not talking anything about Anjana's sarcasm.
She was listening silently. All she thought was after every thing he has done, she did not expect him to call her mother. And even after everything he had done, he talked with her as if nothing has happened. 'He has done the biggest mistake of his life', she thought.
She had said her thoughts aloud. So he heard Anjana and asked her "why? Me going to Singapore is a mistake?" After everything he has done she thought, "so you do everything and go off to some place happily, you do not have any kind of sense nor do you have some trust in me. You have called my mother and told that I am characterless,  to my mom!! For God's sake, were you in your right mind?"
He was silent and that made her more angry and she for one last time told "you will never change, even if we marry there is no guarantee that you will treat me right, so this time it's for real. I am breaking up with you, good bye!!".

My first love part 33 (the last day)

She was so much happy, but something in the back of her mind was sad. 'Oh God.! I am going to miss everything' she thought.
After the fight they had that day, she was not normal anymore in talking with him, but he was talking as if nothing has happened. This made her feel a bit guilty for scolding him, but she thought that few misunderstandings like these will only make their love more stronger.
In midst of all these happenings, her so called five and a half years of college life was coming to an end. This place held lots of memories. This place had sculpted her. This place showed her what love, hate, fight, friendship and life is. The most important stage of growing up from teenage to adult has happened here. To say in a nutshell her life happened here. It was really hard to leave this place without dropping few tears, but she held back those tears and showed the happiness that whelmed inside of her, because she thought that if happiness is shared it doubles unlike those tears.
Her dad came to pick her up from the college and she was preparing couple of weeks ago to leave as she almost lived there as If she was in home. Her friends used to say, 'just a television is missing or else it is an optimal place for a family to live in'.
Hugging her friends before leaving made her eyes teary, but she immediately wiped them off and put on her cheery smile in front. Among her friends she was the first one to leave, so all her friends were there to say her goodbye. After a final glance at her h(ro)ome, she handed over the key to the warden and left with her father, not before texting Suriya prakash that she was leaving finally for good. She thought no more fights will be there between them because she will be always with her parents and later marry him with their parents acknowledgement.

My first love part 32 (sorry again)

She was in middle of doing a procedure for a patient in the hospital and her mobile started ringing. Her unit mate attended the call and kept in her ear for her to talk. She heard nothing from the other end except for some kind of noise. But she recognised who it was and told "I am busy right now. I will call later". After that she was not able to concentrate on whatever she was doing. She just did everything robotically with her mind not in her control. She felt so much depressed, just waiting for the day to get over. Past one week she has been calling him continuously whenever she was free and at night.But he did not attend the call nor did he reply to her text messages.
Once she came to her room at the end of the day,totally worn out, she took her mobile and called him.
The mobile kept on ringing and when she was about to end it he picked up.
Both of them were silent for a minute, thinking whoever talks first will be the loser of the so called war. As usual Anjana talked the first word. But hell no, she did not say sorry.
He replied "sorry".
"How many sorries are you going to waste?" She asked without masking any of her emotions. He did not reply.
With all the emotional turbulence swirling within her, she started crying again."you were the one, who was there for me when my parents made me cry. And promised to take care of me. But then you started to show your true self. And always make me cry, then finally say sorry and behave as if nothing has happened between us. We have lost our love in the process of fighting." She said to him, with her sobs interrupting her now and then.

He then replied slowly in a composed voice "sorry darling. I am really really sorry. I will surely make it up to you for all the mistakes and hurt that I have made you go through. I am really sorry. This will be the first and last that I will behave like this. So hereafter if I do something you just leave me."
When she heard him say those words, she only had one thing in her thoughts and this time she is not going to hide her hurt from hurting him. So she replied "so then you are planning to hurt me again also. Right?get lost..!" And then she cut the call abruptly. But started crying again, thinking that he might have got hurt because of her harsh words.
So finally she sent a message 'I am sorry if I have hurt you. I will call you when I am back to normal'.

My first love part 31 (it's okay)

In the darkness of her room, all she could feel was hurt. She was more than hurt. No words in the dictionary could probably explain how she was feeling at the moment. Amidst the darkness the only sound she was able to hear was her sobs and snobs. 'It's yet another night of crying' thought Anjana. After whatever happened that day nothing seemed to be normal for her. And in between all these problems that was happening, that day her mom started to call her. She has said her mother that she was going to Abarna's birthday treat to the nearby hotel. So when her mom called she answered the mobile in a less crowded and a minimum noise area in the mall,the ladies room. A line of relief fell across her features when her mother told her that she has called her by mistake, because the minute before her mom called her she received yet another threatening message from Suriya saying that he has called her mom and told everything, but she did not mind it because he never had such guts to call her mom and talk. Before ending the call her mother asked about her whereabouts. Anjana just replied: "mom I am in marybrown restaurant. After that we will go near the porur lake to take some pictures of ourselves." Nothing in the voice of her mother indicated that Suriya has called her. So Anjana thought 'he will always only threaten me to make me obey him. Such a sadist'.
In the room Anjana was crying so loudly that she was afraid that she might wake up some nearby room mate. As this was her internship period she stayed in a  single room as part of rules of the management. So she was happy that no one knew her crying and feel pity for her, or worse, would start calling Suriya and shout at him for this pathetic situation of Anjana that he put her in. She cried and cried the whole night till her lacrimal glands stopped secreting tears and in between her stable non crying minutes she kept on calling Suriya prakash,who initially was cutting her call without attending it and later switched off his mobile.
But something inside of her told that everything will be okay tomorrow and it's okay to cry her heart out for a night without any interruptions.

My first love part 30 (those 30 seconds)

It was midnight here and when sleep was about to enclose me, I was waken by the loud ringtone of my mobile. Whenever my phone rings at night I am always reminded of her and this time was not an exception to that thought. The answer for that thought was also same everytime. After that stupid,insane act of mine I lost her. I never thought that I will lose her, but I have hurted her a lot and in the end I am the lonely one, in a lonely night always thinking about her. 'Will she ever think about me or would she have moved on with her life?' Thought Suriya Prakash before checking who have woken him up in this time of night. The bright light made his vision blurry in the dark background of his room. After his vision got adjusted to the light, the caller Id flashed his sister's name-Sujatha- in the missed call list. He looked at the time and it was 12.30AM in his place. Since he was now in Singapore, he thought it would be around 11PM in India. He called back and his sister picked up the call "hello"
"hey sister, how are you? Why calling at this time? Any problem?" Enquired Suriya with an edge of concern in his voice.
Sujatha: "nothing brother. It may be your niece. I did not call you"
He let out a sigh of relief and enquired about his family members health and finished the call. Later when sleep went away leaving him alone, he went back to his memories about why he is single at present.
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That day she did not attend the call in a single ring, which she does only when she wants to hide something from me. But she finally attended the call before I could cut and call her again. "Hello" her voice was troubled.
Her voice told me that something was wrong and I wondered what it could be. So I asked her without hiding all the irritation caused by her attitude from morning "where are you?"
Knowing my irritation she spoke in a calm voice "at cinema hall only"
Her replies were short and that made me more angry. "Who are all with you?" The pause that she gave made me suspicious. Surely she was hiding something from me. After few seconds of pause she replied "me,Abarna, Vasanthi, Farah, Reshma and Abarna's boyfriend Nakul". When I heard that name I did not know what I was doing. I shouted at her: "why the hell is he there? You lied to me. You already knew that he was coming. Right? You are such a cheat. You have cheated me."
Since I was in my native,I was not able to go there and beat that fellow and drag Anjana out of that place.
She replied, now with less noise around her, may be she went away from her friends and spoke in a way which only exposed parts of her anger, "listen Suriya.. I did not lie to you, nor did I know that he was coming. I confirmed for umpteenth time that Nakul was not joining the party. He came unannounced. And I am not a cheater. Don't dare call me cheater"
She made more angry and I asked her to go back to college or else I will tell to her mother about this secret outing of hers without her mother's knowledge. Everytime I used to threaten her like that and she used to obey me after my so called threatening. But this time my threatening did not work and she told me to do whatever I wish and that made me more angry and I cut her call abruptly and made the worst mistake in my life.
I had her mom's number long back and this was the first time I am using it. I called her mother. Once she picked up the call I started talking without allowing her to speak "hello madam. I guess you are Anjana's mother. Just hear me out and don't ask anything else. Your daughter Anjana is now out with her friends. And that friends include boys. She is going out with boys and becoming characterless. She has even gone out with me. Just informing you madam"
The call lasted for 30 seconds and I cut the call immediately before the person in the other end could talk.

My first love part 29 (lover boy)

'To hell with you and your interrogation' Anjana thought of saying to Suriya. Since she did not want to spoil the mood of everyone around her including herself and the person on the other end of the line she replied in a very very calm and a soothing voice hiding all her irritation, "don't get upset darling.! I'm not showing any kind of attitude. Please just understand me and I don't lie to you at any moment"
Suriya replied in a much more irritated voice making Anjana flinch at all the abusive words he was using at the moment. He cut the call abruptly and left Anjana to feel low all by herself for the rest of the day.
Suddenly the girls stood up and then only she realised that they have reached their desired designation. In front of them stood a massive ten storeyed building inviting them all to spend all the pocket money saved for the month in a single day. They all went straight into the famous 'LUXE' cinemas as their first plan of the day was to watch a good movie. Once they entered the cinema hall Anjana was the first to see him,the person who Anjana did not want to see today, but internally she knew that he would come. He saw all of them and smiled broadly and directly went to Abarna and hugged her and wished her on her birthday and gave her a bouquet full of red roses. He was non other then Mr.Nakul,the lover boy of Abarna.
Anjana began to tremble inside, because Suriya prakash does not like Nakul,who is 6 feet tall,lean,medium complexed like Abarna and was more charming with an ever smiling face. Abarna shot her  an apologising look because before planning Anjana confirmed for umpteenth number of times that her boyfriend will not be a part of their plan.
She was snapped back to reality by her 'j-lo' ringtone. As if it was some kind of telepathy knowing that Anjana was doing some mistake and will hide something if not spoken now his name flashed across her mobile's screen.

My first love part 28 (attitude problem)

She was back to hostel that day by ten pm. All the girls were tired nd worn off and was done for the day.
It was one of the most fun filled, happiest day for them. Except for Anjana, who was drained physically and also mentally. All she had in her mind was 'telling the truth will never help in my relationship with him'
Abarna came to her and said "hey girl. Just don't worry thinking about him. He will as usual come back to you. After all you are made for each other and cannot live without one another. Just sleep peacefully now"
Anjana did not want to think about anything regarding Suriya prakash that happened that day.
12 hours ago...
They all boarded the bus and as usual Abarna sat in the window seat with Anjana besides her. Anjana usually preferred window seat but since it was her bestie's birthday she lent her favourite spot for her friend. They all started to sing aloud happy birthday from behind and was finally joined by the people in the bus which made Abarna in verge of tears. Suriya called in middle of these happenings "where are you?"
Since it was too loud outside she was not able to hear him properly and asked him "I can't hear you. What did you say?"
In a bit of irritated voice Suriya asked "I am asking where the hell are you? Why is it so louder there?"
She replied "I am in bus only pa. All are singing Abarna happy birthday song so only it's loud here.and Abarna Is only sitting near me." She added before he could ask his all time favourite question of who was sitting besides her.
SP:" why is everyone singing? Are your class boys coming with you? You lied to me?"
Anjana :" I already told no boys. Then why are you asking that question again? Whatever..all are singing because they all have humanity and may be wanted to make the birthday girl happy by singing the birthday song along with her friends. And the 'all' I told does not contain any boys from my class. They all are the people travelling in the bus"
SP: "see this is why I will always tell you not to go out. Once you go out you start to show attitude"
Anjana thought the war has started and she did not know how big the war was going to become.

My first love part 27 (girls day out)

Spending time with friends has become lesser and lesser since his entry in her life. So when he allowed her to go out with her friends she was more than excited to finally have a girls day out.

The day was more cheerful to begin with cool breezy November climate and all her friends were having a fashion parade and took hell of a time on choosing which dress to wear for this last but not the least outing. Anjana chose a peach colored salwar which had dark blue embroidered border which she got as a gift from Suriya for her birthday that year. Whenever she goes out she has a habit of wearing or having something he gifted her, by that she has a feeling that he will always be along with her.

All the five of her friends were ready, as usual late by couple of hours then planned and finally started from their hostel but not before stopping in their messy mess to have upma for breakfast, which in normal days will be neglected because of its taste(less) in their taste buds.

Anjana called Suriya before leaving from hostel "hey. Just now starting from my hostel "
SP: "hi. Okay go safe. Send pictures of wherever you are"
Anjana : "okay pa. I will!" She said with a cheerful voice reciprocating her mood.
SP: "okay fine. Only girls na? Promise.?"
Anjana: " yes baba. Only girls.you don't have to worry. And I promise to behave" she told trying not to get irritated, by the infinite number of promises taken by him for the same issue and spoil her mood on the day she has been waiting and getting prepared for the whole month.
Before she could even cut the call, her friends were nudging her to end the call and move out of the gate.
Finally when the call was over, thankfully without any quarrels, she saw the bus which they have to aboard came to a stop in front of her and they all hopped in to the bus with lots of smiles and giggling, waiting to create another memorable day celebrating their friendship.
But less did Anjana know that how much of an impact this day was gonna make in her so called wonderful life.

My first love part 26 (happy bird)

'Idiot' she thought for herself. 'How can I even belive those jerky friends of his words.' After everything that happened in the beach, Anjana was still thinking that he would not betray her. 'Suriya prakash is the love of my life. Will he even betray me? Right!they are just jealous of his constant companion.' When those strangers said those words, she was so angry and just wanted to beat them blue, but instead her anger only made her eyes teary. The most romantic moment was totally spoilt.
But the saddest thing of all was that he did not say anything to his friends and instead immediately took her away from that place back to her college. This act of his made her worry but the joy of meeting him for the first time made her forget it totally.
For next few weeks Anjana was a happy bird singing her own love story.
But then she did not know what was waiting ahead of her to destroy her happiness and love out of her life.
It was almost a month after visiting Suriya and it was her roomamate's birthday and so all her friends along with her planned to go on a memorable-last-outing of the year since their college days were coming to end. So she informed Suriya about their plan to chennai city mall and their favourite spot, beseant nagar beach. He as usual instructed her to behave and got lots of promises that she was going out only with girls. But the day awaiting ahead had some other plans for her.

My first love part 25 (Suriya Prakash)

<after 2 years>
He was working at a private company as a production manager in Singapore. He earned well, enough to support him and his family. He got new set of friends, but he did not forget his old buddies who were the sole reason for his breakup with Anjana.
At the beginning of his conversation with Anjana, he was aiming only to get some physical relationship with her. But now he was a changed man, she changed him and disappeared from his life. She was the most beautiful part of his boring life. She was like a moon giving him the light in the dark night, which was itself getting scorched on the other side, by protecting him from getting burned by the blazing sun.
He still felt her hug which was first and last around his neck. Her sweet scent was still hanging inside his senses. He could not forget her, but she did not needed him anymore. She was happy not around him. She hated him now with every cell in her body. At the same time he wanted to reach out to her and wipe away her tears that ran down her cheeks caused by him.
After they met in her college for the first time in their love life, he took her to the beach were they were happily sitting along the shore and she was enjoying the view of the vast ocean and the sounds of waves crashing under her feet. He was enjoying the sight of her, her smile and even her stubbornness made him fall her all over again. That was when it happened. The thing which he thought that he could erase of her memory. The most worst incident that was still haunting his memory like a deep thorn prick.
Except for his close friend who did not accompany the other bunch of losers who came to the beach, no one else knew about Anjana. They just asked a single question "Hey bro..! What's up man..? Who is this new chick? Until last month you were sitting in the same place with another one right?"
The most favorite thing of his, her smile, was totally gone and was replaced by tears welling her eyes, that she refused to let out in front of strangers.

My first love part 24 (the magical moment)

She was so excited about what he told, at the same time her mind warned her not to get excited. So she cleared her throat and tried to bring out the voice which stopped once he told her that he was waiting down to see her and asked him “what did you say?” he laughed heartily, her favorite laugh which she does not hear so often, and replied her “hey dummy, I know you would not believe it, but it will be better if you come fast, because there are so many girls standing down and discussing about me”. Anjana ran down to see him ignoring her mind’s warning and there she saw a silhouette which she was not able to see clearly as it was obstructed by the sun. After getting some more closer she saw him, the love of her life, standing there with his favorite ‘apache', a tall figure about six foot with a medium fair complex and a wavy black hair which was mildly disturbed due to the helmet which he was now holding on one hand with his mobile on another waiting for the response from her. She stood there still and everything around her came to a pause as if someone forgot to press the play button. She reluctantly went to him and when he flashed his smile she felt a tear rolling down her cheek due to happiness and at that moment her mind stopped working and her heart told her to do whatever she wishes for. 

She ran to him and hugged him so tightly forgetting the place and time and cried heartily on his shoulder. When he pulled her saw her face,  he told "Now.. You can breathe.!".  That was when she realized she has been holding her breath for so long and breathed out a relief. 

My first love part 23 (punishment)

It was never the same after her 'sorry'. He always expected her to say whatever she does before doing it. When she texted him first after the fight he lay down few sets of rules like 'do not talk with any class boys, do not go out without asking him, do not go to the theatre with anyone'.  He then told her "If you are ready to do all these then I will talk with you. Or else this will be my last conversation with you". Anjana did not know what to do when he wants to treat her this low. She wanted something or someone to hold and cry and drain it all. She then realized, she needed her mother's lap, to lay down and cry it all out. When her mother warned her, she did not listen to her and now she thought that she was being punished by God for disobeying her mother. Anjana has never hated her parents, she loved them a lot but never got enough love back and then she found a new source of care and affection in Suriya Prakash. But, he too was starting to behave like her parents and that only hurted her a lot.
She also knew that Suriya, who once was so caring and affectionate should be in there within him somewhere. She took an oath in herself that she will find him within him and will change his attitude towards her.
Even though he behaved harshly, her love for him never changed a bit, in fact she began to love him more than before. Each day her love was grew more then it was the day before.He was the one who made her laugh and cry at the same time. So she only showed love and only love to him whenever he makes her cry.
By her sincerity and love Suriya began to change by bits and pieces. He started to show his love for her and moreover he stopped smoking because of her. Anjana thought to herself 'how can I ever hate this man?' when he one day sent her a box full of love and chocolates. It was for her birthday that year and that was the most sweetest thing he has done after a long time.
Once their relationship was getting back to normal, Anjana was in her final year of her studies and he was going to finish his MBA course through correspondence and has got a job overseas. She was so happy for him, at the same time she wanted to meet him at least before he leaves. When she was about to call him and ask about outing, Suriya called her "Hey sweetie..!  What are you doing?"
She replied "At hostel only..!  You?"
SP "Me..  I am outside of your hostel. Why don't you come down?!"

My first love part 22 (sorry)

It was the most unbearable pain that she has ever experienced in her life. Never ever has she cried the whole day and night, continuously for 2 days. It was as if a part of her life has been ripped from her. Anjana thought about lots of things that have happened and things that she wished could have happened, that never saw the reality, like wanting to hold his hand and take a long walk under the light of moon,  a warm reassuring hug that she wants to melt herself in, a small smile on his face that she can just sit all day and admire at.

But nothing like these things happened.  In fact it has been 3 years of their love life and they never have had a proper date,  not even a single meeting,  except looking at each other from distance -when he wishes- once in a blue to come nearby her house and reveal his presence to her.  Those short moments of seeing him was like a treat for her, were she forgets all the hurt he gave her and lives in that moment for a while.

By the sound of the knock on her hostel room door, Anjana came back to the reality and found that her roommate, who was silently observing her all these while, knocked the door. Anjana's already chubby face was still more puffy and eyes were fiery red from all the crying that her roommate did not know as she went home on the weekend. Her roommate has been advising her a lot and told her to leave Suriya, because she was seeing all the sufferings that Anjana was in. But Anjana refused her friend's warnings and stopped talking with her as she was always talking wrong about Suriya, whom she never even knew in the first place.
It was Monday morning and Anjana could not go to college with this face, and so took another day off and was thinking only about him and she did not know how to call him, now that she was the one who called their relationship off.

It was all like a shattered piece of glass that could not be fixed. She kept on thinking what he will be doing at that time and whether what she has done was right or wrong. Every time when he calls it off she was the one to call or text him first and they both were back to normal. So she expected Suriya to call her this time, but only silence and rejection were received back. She came to know that he has the upper hand now as always.
She lost her hope and at the same time started worrying whether he was alright or not, because Suriya was the type of person who to relieve the tension would drive his favorite 'apache' at the maximum speed and sometimes get himself physically hurt to forget the mental pain. So she found the little courage that was left back at the bottom of her heart and texted him 'sorry'.

my first love part 21 ( the break up)

Author’s note: since few followers want me to end the story quick I am ending the story within few parts. Love you all. Thanks for the support.

Some people say past is past, present is present and future is not in our hand. Even though the statement is true, our past determines our future and we should correct our past to have a happy future. Anjana in spite of her mother’s warning started talking with him again, but it all ended in a fight that made her cry even more. Each time they fight she was the one to say sorry and correct their mistake. Each time she says sorry she feels inferior. What she did not want was happening, but he loved her so much that she could not leave him and go. One fine day when they were as usual texting he began to say her that “hey dear. I am sorry. Actually, to say the truth, I was a playboy at beginning. I did not have any intention of loving you truly. i only loved you for time pass. But you changed me into a new man. Your love redefined me. Your sadness made me love you more. Your chubbiness makes me think you are cute and makes me fall for you all over again. You are the one that I love truly now and I really love you a lot.”

What he told was so overwhelming and made her cry out of happiness, but somewhere inside of her-the evil her- made her think at that moment that whatever he told now was really or not? All this while he was a playboy. What if this was also a trick? But she disposed those evil thoughts and switched herself back to lover girl.

In middle of all these still his possessiveness did not waver even a bit, instead it has risen to a point where, whenever she talks to her class boys he started shouting and making a big fuss about all the things. He even sometimes threatens her that he will stop talking with her and breakup with her. She was worried a lot that what if he leaves him. But then too her evil side will think that it will be okay if he leaves her so that she could revive herself back from the biggest mistake of her life and make a good future with the man her parents show her. Even though all these kinds of thoughts come and go she never refuses to leave him.

Built one day all the fights piled up broke into a heated argument and he began to threaten her, but since she was used to it and wanted to get herself into a free world she first told “you leave me for Christ’s sake. I do not need you anymore in my life, I do not need to experience you torture. You already know that I started talking with you only because of the torture that I have been experiencing due to my parents. But now my parents are a little less strict than before, you have started to show your real you. Don’t make me hate you please.”

My first love part 20 (the first fight)

Everything is fine in the end, if it is not fine it is not the end. Anjana kept on thinking this line again and again while she locked herself in her room. After her mobile was taken away, her mother did not talk with her but heard her side of story with little patience and started to cry and gave her lots of advice and told that she would not be telling this to her father and sent her with a warning. Being unable to call Suriya from her cell phone, Anjana called him from her home landline number as she knows his number by heart. He picked up the call and asked why was her mobile switched off. She told him about everything that has happened and started crying again. She also told him to call her mother and talk, but he told "Hey darling. Don't worry. But I cannot talk to your mother now. I have to get settled in my life to talk to your family. So please do not compel me to talk to your family."
She did not know what to do now. So she locked herself in the darkness of her room which changes its mood according to her mood.
It was time to get back to college, so she told her mom that she was leaving. Her mother gave her the mobile back but with a huge warning. So Anjana tried not to call him, but could not restrain herself from him. So ended up texting him once she reached her hostel. Later he called and their first fight started. He told her that how will he talk to her mother like this all of a sudden. And she said back that he should have talked no matter what. And it continued till he cut off the call saying she was showing attitude and they both did not call back each other for next two days.

My first love part 19 (lovers)

It was March 10 2011, the day when they officially became lovers. Even though she did not know what to do, Anjana tried to do her best with him. They talked day and night about nothing much but teasing each other and sharing love. Whenever he says 'I love you' , her heart skips a beat. She did now know that this is how it will be to be in love. In middle of everything he was writing his last before semester in his college and Anjana studied hard to pass her 1st part of MBBS, as it the hardest part of the course. They loved each other so much and days passed, but they did not  meet each other or go out on a date.
It was a weekend and Anjana went home after removing her cast that was applied over her left hand. Removing it was the most relieving thing she has ever felt in her life, it was like coming out after a long time in an airless room and finally getting to breathe.
After going home, she as usually was by herself, and getting scolding from her parents. But the only thing that made difference was Suriya Prakash and his messages. But the thing was she was not able to talk with him day and night since her mother was always around.
And the next day when Anjana came back from bath her mobile was missing from the place which she kept before going to bath. She searched for it very badly everywhere, but it was nowhere to be seen. Then when Anjana went downstairs thinking who might have taken it her mother was having her mobile,  going through her messages. Anjana thought, 'thats it..  I am done.,.!'.
The glare that her mom gave was very frightening and Anjana started crying then and there. Her mother told in a silent angry voice "Who is it? I already doubted you when you were always in your mobile. You do not have any common sense at all. You proved yourself useless as usual. You dare to talk with a stranger and in midst of that you are in love.??" 
The word love when it came out of her mother's mouth, sounded as though it was the most disgusting thing that is available in this world.
She was not able to say anything to her mother. She did not know how to say her mother about her feelings. Whatever she speaks now will not be of any use.
Her mobile was confiscated and she felt helpless.

my first love part 18 (the decision)

Every day when someone gets up from their sleep, all their thoughts will be focused on how they are going to spend their day? How they will spend their day without getting their moods spoiled?

But there are lots of things that spoils ones mood each day like the bus coming late and getting us take scolding from the boss for coming late, the stomach that tells it is hungry when you do not have time to grab even a cup of water, the friend that irritates you when you are already sad, a dog trying to come behind us and trying to frighten us, the boy/girl friend saying ‘we need to talk’, the enemy who shows of when you are yourself sulking in a corner, the machine that gets stuck in middle of something, the big traffic due to an unassisted traffic lights, the mobile network which does not have any network at the time of need, the current that gets cutoff when there is no charge in our mobile and more importantly the bladder which is getting full every time like an alarm in middle of an important complicated procedure.

In middle of all these problems we all find happiness, the happiness that comes from inside of ourselves by thinking of some old beautiful memories, the happiness that comes from seeing a baby smile, the happiness that comes from eating our favorite food, the happiness that comes from others wishes and encouragement, the happiness from seeing the rain, the happiness from the drops of water from our shower removing away all the dirt along with all our stresses.

Like these Anjana found her happiness while talking with Suriya Prakash. He was the sole reason behind her happiness. Even when she was in worst of her moods she felt a sort of relaxation when she heard his soothing voice. He was like a rain in middle of the hot dessert, like a cherry on top of the cake.

So she decided to talk when he too was silent for a long time, “Hey…  I am very sorry that I did not cut your call and left without even replying anything, even to your message. I was so confused that whether all these happiness will last forever?! And I was also afraid that what will happen when I hurt you?! What will happen when my parent does not accept you?! Please do not talk while I am talking. I feel so vulnerable in front of you. You know all my darkest secrets. You know I am not used to all these kinds of things. You know I have never talked to a stranger before.  But in spite of all these I talked with you.even called you as my ‘brother’.. haha..!!! when I needed a shoulder to cry over, you were the only one who dried up my tears. But, what if you become the person who hurts me?! I thought all these over and over, but among all these thoughts there was this small thing in a corner of my heart which told me that I am crazy to be thinking all these when I have already fallen for you…!!! I fell for you long back Suriya. Yes…!! I love you more than anything I have ever loved.. more than the junkies that I love…!!”

My first love part 17 (YES or NO)

Anjana did not know what to do. She was thinking the whole night about what she is doing,whether whatever she has done was right or wrong. As he was doing the most beautiful proposal, she got call from her mother and Anjana was not able to reply him and said him that she will call later and cut his call and started to talk with her mother.
Her mother enquired her who was she talking with and Anjana told that she was talking with her school friend and dealt with the situation for now. After talking with her mother and the first lie she told to her mother about Suriya Prakash was making her feel guilty.
Later Suriya Prakash messaged : 'hey dear...  Wat happened? Anything wrong? Did I tell anything that you din want to hear??  Please don't hesitate to say me. You know I'm ur frnd too..  Any problems with home? Jus Plz reply me dear...!!!  I am sorry if I have hurted you..!!'
She did not know what to reply him, instead she started crying thinking what has she done to him. She too loves him so much, but she wants to end up marrying him, will he marry her? Will he be like this the whole time without changing? Will her parents accept him? Lots of questions were flashing through her mind. She did not reply him anything that whole day. She was afraid to hurt him, at the same time seeing her friends getting hurt and crying due to their boyfriends, made her feel whether he too will hurt her back?
If she says 'yes' it will be her acceptance that she is ready to go to any extent to be with him, also yes for him to hurt her at any time and also she will be a rebellious daughter. If she says 'no' it will be the end of her happiness that she has always been sacrificing for her parents 'social status'.
But one thing that she knows for sure is that she loves both her parents and Suriya equally. She did not want to lose either of them. So she decided to call him and talk it out. When she called, he picked up at the first ring itself but, both of them did not utter a single word, both were silently listening to their hearts and it's conversation with each other.

My first love part 16 (those two days)

They both were awake and talking the whole night,  but then too she was not able to end the call.
When it was time, she felt as if something in her was lost, something that she herself was not aware of inside her, something that she was willing to lose only to that single person.
After he left, for the first time in her life she felt the pain of losing a person who was like a routine, a necessary of her life. She was checking her mobile again and again and again, but what could she do? All she did was reading their conversations all over from the start and how their friendship bloomed into something she could not pin point at.
She was like waiting for the longest,  hardest, worst two days of her life to get over soon.
He called her after torturous 32 hours and just talked for about 2 minutes.
After those heavenly 2 minutes,  Anjana realized that she has lost her soul and heart to him. She was in love with him. She has fallen into a trap where she knows that she cannot be saved by anyone.
Anjana was waiting for his return, but did not know how to open her feelings to him.
It was the day of his arrival and she waited for his call like a child eagerly waiting for his mom to open the chocolate wrapper and give it to him.
He called her after few moments of his arrival. When she heard her ring tone especially kept for him, her heart beat more faster and when she heard his voice it almost skipped a beat.
Before she could start talking he said,    "Don't talk..  Just hear me.. Don't get tensed because of what I am going to say to you.. Actually... I missed you, missed you like a hell, and I am sooo sorry to say that...  I have fallen for you Anjana..  I thought my heart would burst out without talking with you....  You are a necessary part of my life.. And now..  I love you..!!!".

My first love part 15 (not a stranger anymore)

Just because one wanted to remain friends with each other forever, there is this heart that sends different signals and confuses the mind. Like that his gift for the valentine's may not be an actual type of gift, but it made her fall for him without her knowledge. He was no more a stranger. Anjana started talking with him more often and as usual he talks a lot, he even started to talk with her whenever he gets free time. She too texted him even during the class hours.
It was more than a friendship, but less than a lover. She felt as if he knows all the dark secrets about her that only her secret hidden diary knew of, which she burnt into ashes before her college started, so that it would not get caught in her parents hands that would eventually hurt them.
He was a part of her life now. He was also sometimes possessive about her when she tells him that some boys of her class talked with her. It was new to Anjana when a boy gets possessive about her.
Also sometimes she gets this thought that it is not right for her to be happy this long,something bad should happen. Like she thought her left elbow started to pain a lot, and she went to her college hospital and got herself x-rayed and found a hair line fracture of her elbow bone and was advised to apply a cast for six weeks.
When she told this to her mother, her mother was a bit worried,but then she did not mention that all this was due to that fall at the amusement park.
Anjana was a little bit in sad mood thinking about the incident that happened at the amusement park and did not wanted to talk with anyone.
As usual Suriya Prakash was her life saver and took her out of her own sulking.
He but then told another sad news, that he cannot talk with her for two days as he was going on a college trip to Japan. That made her more sad and she thought how was she going to spend those two hell of the days.

My first love part 14 (February 14)

The day of valentine's all her friends went outing with their boyfriends which gave Anjana four hours of free time to spend on her own. She was surrounded by packets of junkies like her favorite cheese balls and pringles small boxes with different flavors and with a punch of sweet which consisted of dairy milk and few ferrero rochers.
She was thinking that if she was committed, all these were supposed to come as gift from that special person. She had lots of expectations for that special one, who should love her more than anyone, who should trust her with anything and give her life a spice with lots of surprises, flowers and kisses.
Her thoughts were interrupted by her 'J lo'  ring tone and her mobile displayed Suriya's name. A small smile spread across her face as she saw his name and she attended the call after few seconds.

SP : "Hey dear..! What are you doing?"

Anjana : "Nothing much pa..  Just eating snacks!"

SP : "Oho..  You should not eat much of junkies. You have to be conscious of your health too"

Anjana : "Don't preach me about health. As if you are a very health caring person.  Junkies are way more good than your kings and kingfishers..!!"

SP : "All right. I surrender. I will try to stop them.  Okaaay??"

She smiled at her initial effort of changing his bad habits and replied back "Let's see..!"

SP : "Okay fine..  You will see..  Now say me what is your mobile network?"

Anjana : "Why asking that?"

SP : "Just to know which network is faster and good"

Anjana : "Hmm..  Okay..  I am using airtel only"

SP : "Allright..  I am going out..  I will call you later"

Anjana wanted to wish him happy valentine's day but refrained herself and just said good bye and hung up the call. Later with all the junkies still around her, she opened her black colour dell laptop and started watching the Korean movie '200 pounds beauty'
As she was watching the movie she got a message which informed her that her mobile number was recharged for Rs.250.  She got confused, because she did not ask her father nor her friends who went out to recharge her number. She was thinking so much as who would have recharged her unknowingly, that too this big of an amount. Then it striked her like a flash.
She smiled and then texted Suriya Prakash 'thank you..!!  :)'

He replied 'you are welcome dear..  Happy valentine's day..!!! Be happy always...!! :)  :)'

My first love part 13 (birthday)

The most difficult part of every woman's morning chore is selecting the dress that she wears for that day. That is what Anjana was doing right now,and since it was her birthday today she was totally way more than excited and her friends made it more special by midnight surprises like treasure hunt for her cake around the hostel, which had beautiful words written over colorfull papers along with small gifts like brooches, clips, coffee mug, etc., Then the cake cutting was done and everyone who helped in her celebration went to sleep only after getting nice chocolate cream facial.
On top of all these like a cherry on top of the cake, Suriya Prakash called her sharp at 12Am and wished her 'happy birthday'.
This was the most amazing birthday that she has ever had on her life, because at her house she did not get a wish from her parents until someone reminds them and never in her life at home has she ever cut a cake for her birthday. The funny thing is for her brother's first birthday her mother made cake at home and they all celebrated that day.
Whatever, she did not want to spoil her best day by thinking about her past and sulk. Yet, her parents have not called her and wished until now which made her a bit sad.
Finally, she chose a dress among the new dresses she has bought before joining the college. It was an anarkali type long kurti which was colored in darkest shade of blue and with golden jari's over it. She loved the dress and was saving it for this day.
She went to the class as usual, but was surprised that the whole batch containing about 200 students stood up and sang her the birthday song. She was taken aback by surprise and even she got the nostalgic feeling that she was not able to explain.
That night for dinner she treated her close buddies at KFC nearby her college. Everyone had fun time there. But the main discussion of topic over there was valentine's day plans.
Anjana was just sitting and listening to everyone's plan and wondered what will she be doing on 'that' day.

My first love part 12 (back to home)

The warm weather and the beige colour of her hostel was welcoming. She found her lost happiness in it. Even the weak rope of spider Web hanging over the topmost corner of her hostel room appeared to be beautiful. The smell of January morning was lovely. The most hated person of the hostel - the hostel warden- even looked smilingly at her. It was what she needed, a change in atmosphere, a different place where she can be herself, be free and feel independent.
Anjana called her mother as a formality and informed that she has reached hostel safely and got back few advices on how to be a good girl. She does not talk to her father through call, so it was a great relief for her.
She then texted Suriya Prakash that she has reached hostel and started to get ready for the class.
As a first year student she had to go to the Anatomy class first and look at the cadavers (dead bodies) and learn about basic human anatomy. The Anatomy room was very big containing twenty tables with cadavers, on each table surrounded by 10 students seperated according to roll calls were observing their tutors lecturing about the day syllabus. With the irritation of eyes due to the formalin used to preserve the cadavers, Anjana was standing behind all the students as she was tallest among them. Even though it was gross, she enjoyed the class. Next was the physiology class where they have to sit in the class at the morning hours to listen to the lectures and at evening standing around microscopes and pippets and pricking their own fingers to test their own blood. The other subject was biochemistry (most dry and tough subject)  where sitting in the class was itself hard and hearing lectures of biochemistry was made more harder after eating (stomach fully) lunch.
This was her daily routine and she loved being in the room talking with Abharna and other of her classmates.
At night now a days Anjana slept sometimes even at 3Am, because she was talking (actually listening) to Suriya Prakash. He talked a lot, mostly about how he got injured while fighting over silly matters with his school friends and sometimes he asked her to call his school friends at midnight and they both used to tease them. It was fun. He made her laugh. She never laughed this much all at once in her whole lifetime. She was happy felt that happiness. And finally it was February, the month of valentine.

My first love part 11 (friendship)

Anjana was totally relieved after talking with Suriya Prakash. She was thinking about how he tried to console her.
He told " Hey girly..  I am really sorry.  My mobile got broke so was just using a basic model phone and was not able to come to Facebook and all other stuff"
She replied "I was so lonely and angry and all. And in midst of that when you did not respond, I felt so left out. So only I cried while sending you the voice message. Please don't talk with me due to sympathy because that."
SP: "Not like that and all dear. You are always my friend. It was just my circumstances. And you as my friend should never cry. Ok.??"
Anjana replied okay and then he was saying what and all he did that day and tried to make her laugh.
Even In her school days Anjana had only one friend from her kindergarten period. But then too she was not totally dependent on others. Now she felt she was slightly getting accustomed to Suriya's presence.
Next day was the day to return to her college and Anjana was way more focused on returning back to her ho(me)stel. While she was packing all her things her left elbow was paining and she just thought it was just from lifting heavy weights.
When she was leaving her room she said good bye to it and was thinking how it would be if her parents were more happier with her, as they were with her brother. Won't life will be much easier if her parents showed their 'hidden love'  to her.!

My first love part 10 (the voice message)

Anjana kept on calling Suriya Prakash again and again, but his call was diverted and went straight into voice message. Overwhelmed by her feelings, In the next call Anjana decided to pour her heart out in voice message.
She dialed him again and when the call was diverted she started to talk after the beep.
"Hey Suriya. What happened to you? Why are you not attending my call? Are you avoiding me? I already told you that this will happen and so I did not wanted to talk with you, but after you pressurized me I started talking with you. Now, you are not at all picking up my call. You were there for me when I was happy. Now I'm not okay. I'm hurt. I'm lost. Please help me. I don't have anyone's shoulder to lay back and cry. My parents are in the horrible phase of their love, where their love is more important for them than showing their 'hidden love' to their daughter. Please.. you too don't abandon me."
Anjana did not expect it to go like this,  but she was crying the whole time and now she could not even take back the words spoken and the message sent.

After saying it all out aloud, she felt some tiny bit of relief. She was about to sleep after days, but was interrupted by her ringtone. It was an unknown number. She did not attend at first, but since she got call from the same number thrice, she picked up at the fourth call and waited for the caller to talk first.
"HELLO...! "
It was him, the same polite, soothing voice. It was her friend Suriya Prakash. He has finally called her and did not abandon her.

My first love part 9 (alone)

Anjana felt so bad. She was used to getting scoldings outside.
For instance when she was studying 7th standard while she went for a mall with her family, her dad left her and her mother and went to the food court and few minutes later he called them to come over to the food court. Her mother did not know the exact way and Anjana went in front to lead her mom but went in a wrong way. Her mom on the other hand found out the way from Mr. Ravi through call and went to the food court. Whereas Anjana found her own way and finally got there about 2 minutes later. Her father did not even see that it was public and slapped her on the cheeks. But the recent one was more worse,where she and her wounds were neglected and only her mother was given attention (but all she has asked was some love more than wealth).
Anjana came home and did not try to show anything outside, but she was crying the whole night and could not stop crying every other night for next few days.
Along with that her so called friend did not even respond to her messages and calls. She was so lonely and felt so depressed. Her heart was aching to be happy. Her mind wanted to be happy, but she could not just stop thinking about that day and her father's words. She felt useless like a dead battery. She lost a her energy and charm. Even then, her family did not even note her red and puffy eyes from all night crying (as usual) and life went on until she could not hold it in.

She called Suriya Prakash three days later which went straight to his voice mail made her depression turn into anger.

My first love part 8 (the worst day)

Anjana was dressed in her favorite red color kurti with black flower embroidery and a black legging with shawl. Along with her parents and brother, she was also accompanied by her cousins and their family.
They entered the amusement park with bracelet like tickets around their wrists and coolers over their fore head with bags hanging of their shoulders containing extra set of dresses to be used after water rides.

She texted Suriya Prakash that day before leaving home 'hey pa...  I'm going to mgm dizziee world today with my family today..  Feeling vry excited..  Hope u have a good year ahead...  Happy new year..!!  :)'
She did not get any reply from him so she tried calling him but his call was in divert.
So she left home without talking with him.
At the amusement park she first rides her most favorite ride 'merry_go_swing' which is about 40 feets above ground and has seats hanging down from top and goes round and round for 10 minutes at a high speed.
Then she rode giant wheel, octopus ride, roller coaster, free fall and most of the water rides. Then it was time for the lunch. When the word lunch was uttered,  she recognized that her tummy was cursing her with acids secreting inside her stomach.
Her mom took food from the counter and sat on a bench folding her legs and sat flat on the bench. The bench had only two weak supports and Anjana came with plate containing white rice, sambar, potato fries and chicken. She sat on the edge of the bench on which her mom was seated.
And then the bench fell to side of Anjana and she fell over her left elbow and her mom too fell down,all the food scattered on the ground, with people watching she first tried to help her mom. But then her father came and helped her mom to get up and started shouting at Anjana.
"DON'T YOU HAVE ANY SENSE??  DON'T YOU SIT PROPERLY?  HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND? YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW TO SIT PROPERLY WHAT IF YOUR MOM HAS GOT HURT? WHAT WILL HAPPEN THEN? YOU ARE AS USUAL USELESS. YOU DON'T EVEN THINK BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHING..!!"
Tears were peeking through Anjana's eyes and every other word her father throwed at her were so harsh and so rude. Being hurt herself and with hundreds of ears hearing and hundreds eyes watching she felt that it was the worst day of her whole life.

MALDONADO

She says I am wrong sometimes,but she says it all the time.
She encourages me to do things, but she also discourages me at the same time when I do it.
She is a well wisher, who tries to dominate me.
She never listens to what I am trying to say,  but says that I do not know anything. She always wants it her own way, but says that I do it my own way.
She thinks that I am stubborn, but she does not know that she is equally stubborn.
She always tries to overlook me, I wish she looks into me.
She depresses me, but cheers me at the same time.
She wants me to talk, but less does she knows that I am a listener.
She is my best friend, also my worst enemy.
She is my person.
She is Maldonado.

P. S: I am not kidding. Malds this one is for you.

My first love part 7 (getting to know him)

She got the euphoric feeling when she heard his voice.  It was the most polite male voice she has ever heard. She wanted to speak but her voice got stuck and (un)fortunately her mobile ran out of charge and the call got cut off. She then immediately started charging her mobile and opened her laptop and messaged him 'hey..  Hi.. That was me..  I oly called u..  My mob was out of charge..  So the call got cut...'

Suriya Prakash replied 'hey...  Thanks fr trusting me ya.. Can I call u now???'

She replied 'No..  I ll call u tmr...'

SP 'oh..  Okay..  U can text nw ...?'

Anjana thought whether to say yes or no. She was afraid whether she will get caught by her parents. So she replied 'no ya..  I ll txt tmr... Going to sleep now..  Good nyt..!! :)'

Even though she said good night to him she was just thinking about about him and his 'girlfriend'. He has said few days back that he was in love with his classmate for over a year but since she was a Muslim girl she did not even turn back once and see him and now that girl was also about to get engaged.
She felt sad for him and wanted to console him.
She also did not like his habit of smoking and drinking. Since she did not want to get too much involved with him, she did not say anything to him. The next couple of days Anjana and Suriya Prakash talked a lot about their interests, likes and dislikes. They had a lot in common. Their favorite color, number, ice cream, food, songs, etc.,  Anjana felt that she has become close with him. He was there when no one in his family talked with her. His words were soothing when her family members did not talk lovable words with her.
Next day was new year and they had a family get-together at MGM dizziee world. Less did she know that that day was gonna be the most important day of her life.

My first love part 6 (the Christmas eve)

Anjana was excited as she entered the street full of people purchasing things for Christmas and new year. There was end of the year sale put up in red hoardings everywhere. Her home was nearby the famous wholesale Bazaar in Chennai. So it was a havoc everywhere.  People bargaining for discounts on the roadside shops and she was there with her mom to buy dress(es). As she was super sized girl readymade dresses were not an option for her. But even though she knows that all the dresses hanging outside the showrooms can't be worn by her she fantasized of those dresses. Her mom brought her a sky blue colored cloth with dark blue prints on it and a matching cloth for stitching.

Usually Anjana doesn't choose what she wears.  Because the best part of shopping is that she gets to talk with her mom freely as if they are the best mom and daughter in the world.  So she let's her mom select whatever it is for her (and she chooses for her mom).

Next day it was Christmas eve and Suriya Prakash messaged her. 'hey girlyyy ... Merry Christmas...  Hope u r having fun...  Between y can't v jus exchange our mob numbers...  V cud get to know each other...!! This is my number 8870123456'

She could not believe that a boy texted her his number. She forgot all the kind of barriers that she should have known and was totally ready to give her number.  But instead she replied  ' O.. come on...  U think that I ll give u my number...  It's not funny... U r totally playing with me I guess..  I'm fat and I'm ugly..  No one likes to talk with me..  And here u r trying to get my number...  That's not good... '

As usual the reply was instant from Suriya 'no problem year... I jus want to be ur friend.. U don't have to give me ur number...  If u trust me u cud call me..  U already hv my number...  :) '

She did not reply anything and went out from her 15 x 10 sized bedroom which was painted in the light shade of purple and a marble floor to the bathroom adjacent to her room which was 7x7 sized, with an Indian style latrine on left side to the door and shower towards the right and mirror opposite the doorway.
Later that day even though she was at home doing household chores she was thinking about Suriya and was wondering how it will be to talk to a stranger. So she decided to call him.

At night before going to bed she dialed his number with lots of hesitation and there went the ring to him and he picked up and answered "HELLO.."

My first love part 5 (the vacation)

After coming to college her first lengthy holiday was Christmas holidays. Anjana has not been to her home for about 3 months..!! She missed her 'home'. Right from her childhood Anjana used to be alone and away from her family members because she liked some alone time from her always loving but scolding parents and a non supportive brother who was studying 7th standard in a cbse institution.
Her father Mr. Ravi kalanithi was a middle-aged person about to reach his golden jubileeth year who is a renowned lawyer.
Anjana's mother Mrs.Hema ravi who is 10 years younger than Mr. Ravi is a typical South Indian home maker who is perfect in all her household chores and a loving mother and a devoted wife.
Anjana and all her family members are fair complexed and few inches taller than a normal person with normal height.
The thought of going home made Anjana happy as well as sad.

Her parents sent the driver in their bluish-violet colored Scorpio car to pick her up from the college. But she wanted to go in bus which she has never been on. Before starting from her college Anjana messaged Suriya Prakash 'nice plan bro.. But b careful not to hurt ur girls feelings' and she left home where she can't be independent.

My first love part 4 (his love)

It was the cool evening of December and Anjana in spite of the chilly weather was sweating and thought of switching on the  air cooler of her 15 x 15 feet beige color painted walls and ceiling room with same colored floor tiles which fortunately had an attached bathroom unlike other colleges which had a common bathroom for 20 students. But since her roommate was allergic to air cooler she was trying to get used to it.
Her roomie Abharna was a year older than her from south of TamilNadu. Abharna was a moderately built, fair, Brahmin girl who already has a boyfriend from school.

Anjana was thinking whether what she has done was correct or not. She was thinking about her earlier conversation with her 'brother'

Suriya Prakash had texted her 'hey anjana....! Come on yaar.. U already cald me a brother...  That's the first step of getting to know each other... I may be a stranger now...  But v can b gud friends pa...'

Anjana  replied 'I'm not used to all these texting.....  But since u insist I ll give it a try...  Bt if this goes more then anything wat it s now...  I ll stop msgin u....' 

As expected he replied immediately as if he was waiting for her to message back.

Suriya Prakash (SP): 'heyy thanku fr trusting me and I ll promise tat this won't go beyond wat it is..  Cos I already love another girl (if tat s wat u r afraid of) tat too one sided...  I'm trying to gain her attention even now too..  Fr Dat I hv fakely git admitted in hospital nw :p..  So Dat she ll hv some sympathy... '

Bit relieved but also something in back of her mind she was having some sort of ache-y feeling that she couldn't point at right now she closed her laptop and went for dinner to her messy canteen.

People

People who are happy are not really happy. People who are sad are not really sad.
People who are full are always not full.  People who are hungry are always not hungry.
People who are healthy are really not healthy. People who are sick are  really not sick.
People who are funny are not the funniest. People who are alone are not the loneliest.
People who are strong have the weakest weakness. People who are weak have the strongest strength.
People who are lovely are not actually lovable. People who are annoying are not actually annoyable .

All have their own strength..
Their own weakness..
Their own life..
Don't be judgmental..
Don't be sarcastic...
Don't hurt anyone with the thing sharper than the knife i.e ur words..!!

My first love part 3 (non biological brother)

Anjana did not know what to do when she got another new message from Suriya Prakash.

'hi...  Are you afraid? Y aren't u replying??  U don't hv to worry about me...  We cud b friends ya..!! '

As a girl who loves to be independent but from a complete orthodox family who made her study in a only girls school, all this talking to a stranger (that too a boy) was new and exciting.  But the excitement did not remove her fright and nervousness. So she decided to be on a safer side.

She typed on her messenger
'hi brother..!

I'm not afraid to chat wid u..  But I don't like chatting wid a guy who s stranger to me...'
And took few minutes to  click the send button.
And when she was about to log out she got a message from her so called 'non biological brother'.